Sometimes we get hung up on things said, done, acted on, committed etc that we let it dictate our future. We let these things play a significant role in who and what we later become.
Sometimes that’s good, regret and remorse can be a powerful tool if used properly.
Sometimes its not, sometimes it can hold you back from the people you love, opportunities and positive influence.
For the longest time, not until a few months ago really, I held onto so much…that it kept me from moving on with life, from developing healthy relationships and from committing to things and people I love or could have loved. I was over things but I wasn’t over the sin and with that I didn’t forgive myself for my actions.
I still kept part of it with me, part of that sin and those memories so close.
It was never the past relationship that I had to get over; I had admittedly checked out awhile before I had left. It was the one right after that (what it meant, not what it was), and the reasons for leaving the first stuck with me.
“I finally found that life goes on without you, and my world still turns when you’re not around.”
But it no longer haunts me…
Past actions, sin, continuing it..no longer haunt me.
Just recently, on January 24th, I rid myself of everything that was remaining from the past. Its gone, all of it, not a single part of it physically remains, even the files. I’ve reclaimed that day.
I’ve been over it for awhile, but every now and then its something I choose to revisit, to look over, to examine (the sin). We’re forgiven for our sins when we ask, but sometimes that isn’t enough to us.
I can say that my viewpoint on it has forever changed; I have overcome our past.
