(The following was written Friday, June 27, 2008. I was incredibly sick battling a virus that had given me a hodgepodge mix of sickness…these are my thoughts stemming from the whole ordeal)
so, i’m feeling deathly sick lately.
i’ve gone through this puzzling string of nonsense from runny nose, then unimaginable fatigue, to sore throat, to cough to something entirely different where my insides want to purge outside.
It is rather annoying, especially considering its the middle of summer, i have someone new in my life, and instead of living it up, I’m just hoping and praying I can find rest in the night, safe asylum from this ridiculous summer virus.
So, thinking I may have been on my death bed last night (when you’re sick, you’re allowed to exaggerate to extremes the normal you would laugh at later), i thought about the recent passing of Gene, an old coworker of mine, and legacy….
If you can do it better, do it
…that’s how Gene lived his life and expected as much from the people he worked with.
Legacy, if i leave now, aside from random credit card debt and heartbreak for all of the ladies out there…what do i leave behind?
If i keel over in my apartment…i wonder how long it would take for someone to notice. Work would call, Natalie would wonder, Stan below me may notice a terrible odor above him…but as far as leaving anything behind for anyone but myself, I don’t know.
I may have left indelible impressions on people, but the true impact and impression a person leaves in another’s life is never truly realized until they have departed.
I haven’t done enough in this world to leave behind a legacy.
But, I don’t want to keel over and die in my apartment without the people I love, knowing just how I loved them. If i go, whether it be today, tomorrow or 50 years from now…I want to leave something more than my impression behind…
